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i'm so lazy to update honestly
and well i've skipped for almost 18 days
SCREW MY LAZINESS
well i was lazy to update due to my studies actually
i'm updating my works frm JANUARY until now , this second everything that i've skipped
imagine i finished 4/5 essay with 2 hours , FREAK
so i'm really exhausted everyday .
and i'll sleep like a kid everynight , hugging so tight to my teddies
afraid it'll be steal by come culprits
i'm afraid of facing the day everday . i'm so afraid i'll do some mistakes again
call me coward . i don't care
i've never been perfect , imperfectness had existed in me ever since the day i started breathing
I DID TRIED TO ERASE ALL THE IMPERFECTNESS ,but nothing works
everyday i'm facing moodswings
i might be hyper now ,but i'm eventually low next second
people find me weird but i just can't help it nor i give a dam at times

almost everyday i thinked of the "problem"
i'm so not over it actually
it's not matter whether we're still together or not , but the trust i've put in you
you and J means a lot to me in a different way
you're the first one i've ever thinked of being serious
i'm really putting extremely lot of efforts to fall for you
it's quite hard actually , cause you're very "different"
Mr Dr. Jekyll and Mr.Hyde :D
according to your beloved sister , you might be shy . i wont deny that
but everything are upside down now
J needed me a lot and i MUST be there for him
i really didn't know that you hated him so deeply
i was blaming you for being childish also , sorry
but when i get to know the truth , i put myself in your shoes
and i find you actually tolerated a lot =D
if i were you , trust me J wouldn't be breathing on this planet anymore
HOW CAN SOMEONE STAND OF ALL HIS CRUSHES ARE BEING CLOSED WITH HIS BESTIES?
I REPEAT , all crushes
J never mean to do that and he don't know how things happen also
SO GOD , please stop fooling us
well i totally salute you two guys
you hate each other more than anything , and still pretend to be so closed in front of others
i won't deny the relationship was a big mess ever since we're together
and i'll list this as the worst relationship i've ever had
but you know what?
i've experienced a lot of fun in it
especially the cute part of him which is only discovered by ME only :D
no one believe his being cute , but i do
even his own sister or mom never see that part of him
honestly i've never ever tried to change my mind in a relationship
but when it comes to you , i did tried to changed
and when i get use to it , that's when all the craps happened
and now , i wanna solve everything and get back to my normal life
i can't stand of something that hunts me for so long
it do kills me a little day by day
maybe it's just my trend when i want to get serious , the first relationship will never works
we'll need to break and start al over again
the problem now , i don't think i'll want to take the risk anymore or maybe i do

Sorry kiddies
jie jie never mean to break the basketball pole :(
i was playing basketball that day and i dunk , and the pole are broken now . GRRR

HUMANS I'M SO SICKED
MY BONES ARE LIEK CRACKING
MY FOREHEAD ARE SO WARN
I'M FREEZING HERE BUT SUN ARE BURNING SO BIG OUTSIDE THERE
EVERYTHING ARE SPINNING
MY NOSE ARE GETTING FROM PALE INTO PINKISH COLOUR
MY HEAD ARE REALLY ACHING BADLY
i look strong but i'm actually weak
i'm getting sick even more often after getting into this whole new year of busy life
i need LONG and TIGHT hugs from babes

SHCL IS MY BELOVED MAMA NOW AND EVER
Datuk SHCL

PS : i love anything to do with star shape . I love starfish , starfruit and stars . but rainbow still come first.

Datin XR

i'm so lazy to update honestly
and well i've skipped for almost 18 days
SCREW MY LAZINESS
well i was lazy to update due to my studies actually
i'm updating my works frm JANUARY until now , this second everything that i've skipped
imagine i finished 4/5 essay with 2 hours , FREAK
so i'm really exhausted everyday .
and i'll sleep like a kid everynight , hugging so tight to my teddies
afraid it'll be steal by come culprits
i'm afraid of facing the day everday . i'm so afraid i'll do some mistakes again
call me coward . i don't care
i've never been perfect , imperfectness had existed in me ever since the day i started breathing
I DID TRIED TO ERASE ALL THE IMPERFECTNESS ,but nothing works
everyday i'm facing moodswings
i might be hyper now ,but i'm eventually low next second
people find me weird but i just can't help it nor i give a dam at times

almost everyday i thinked of the "problem"
i'm so not over it actually
it's not matter whether we're still together or not , but the trust i've put in you
you and J means a lot to me in a different way
you're the first one i've ever thinked of being serious
i'm really putting extremely lot of efforts to fall for you
it's quite hard actually , cause you're very "different"
Mr Dr. Jekyll and Mr.Hyde :D
according to your beloved sister , you might be shy . i wont deny that
but everything are upside down now
J needed me a lot and i MUST be there for him
i really didn't know that you hated him so deeply
i was blaming you for being childish also , sorry
but when i get to know the truth , i put myself in your shoes
and i find you actually tolerated a lot =D
if i were you , trust me J wouldn't be breathing on this planet anymore
HOW CAN SOMEONE STAND OF ALL HIS CRUSHES ARE BEING CLOSED WITH HIS BESTIES?
I REPEAT , all crushes
J never mean to do that and he don't know how things happen also
SO GOD , please stop fooling us
well i totally salute you two guys
you hate each other more than anything , and still pretend to be so closed in front of others
i won't deny the relationship was a big mess ever since we're together
and i'll list this as the worst relationship i've ever had
but you know what?
i've experienced a lot of fun in it
especially the cute part of him which is only discovered by ME only :D
no one believe his being cute , but i do
even his own sister or mom never see that part of him
honestly i've never ever tried to change my mind in a relationship
but when it comes to you , i did tried to changed
and when i get use to it , that's when all the craps happened
and now , i wanna solve everything and get back to my normal life
i can't stand of something that hunts me for so long
it do kills me a little day by day
maybe it's just my trend when i want to get serious , the first relationship will never works
we'll need to break and start al over again
the problem now , i don't think i'll want to take the risk anymore or maybe i do

Sorry kiddies
jie jie never mean to break the basketball pole :(
i was playing basketball that day and i dunk , and the pole are broken now . GRRR

HUMANS I'M SO SICKED
MY BONES ARE LIEK CRACKING
MY FOREHEAD ARE SO WARN
I'M FREEZING HERE BUT SUN ARE BURNING SO BIG OUTSIDE THERE
EVERYTHING ARE SPINNING
MY NOSE ARE GETTING FROM PALE INTO PINKISH COLOUR
MY HEAD ARE REALLY ACHING BADLY
i look strong but i'm actually weak
i'm getting sick even more often after getting into this whole new year of busy life
i need LONG and TIGHT hugs from babes

SHCL IS MY BELOVED MAMA NOW AND EVER
Datuk SHCL

PS : i love anything to do with star shape . I love starfish , starfruit and stars . but rainbow still come first.

Datin XR

HELLO EARTHLINGS
i know blog is dead :(
i'll update as much as i can tonight

PC was sicked , so i re-format it
and when it came back , internet was DOWN , grr
But now everything is ok :)

I wasn't feeling well
I'm suffering due asthma
everynight i ended up waking in the midnight cause i'm having trouble of breathing normally
i haven't inform red-bean :(
and humans you don't have to publish anything to others
just don't make people to be worried of me
and i appreciate you for not telling
and for the first time!!
i'm being so hyper when i'm having period , AWW
i'll jump and scream like no one cares
laugh as loud as i can
AND LOL I FEEL SO AWESOME SERIOUSLY

and sad to say i only start to love SRI KL now
it's kinda too late but i do love SRI KL now
GO CYRENS , FIGHTING!!
I feel proud cause SRI KL won the first time in cheer-leading
and YES!! we won the best supporter award
OMGGG , IT'S SO SO SO SO SO AWESOME!!

and yes i love everything now
i will jump as high as i could until i reach the rainbow :)

HELL EARTHLINGS :)

Dissapointed to see me so early here , right?
normally , i'll only wake up when sun start burning my ass (around 11)
YES!! i'm excited to headback to RM
I promise i'll defiitely hug justin tight
or maybe cry with him also :(
if someone know how much pain he's going through now , i promise i'll appreciate it
HUMANS , WHAT'S WITH THAT DITCHING HIM?
He appreciate all of you so much , so why are you guys treating him like this?
Let me tell you , pass is pass , let it go and face the reality now!!
He's suffering and all of you should be there , not ditching him!!

I want apocalypse so badly
No one knows how much it hurts me everytime you ignore me
Well , it kills me a little by little , and now theres too many broken part to be fix
I'll do anything to get things to be alright again

seriously i feel shameful for what so ever i've did
well it's my fault to be so easily effected by him
it wasn't all his fault by the way
hell yes , too much of understanding with JUSTIN until i'm insane
i wouldn't say it was his fault , it's actually mine
he was just telling me what so ever he felt and i shouldn't be so sensetive!!
HELL YES
SORRY , SHOULDN'T HAD BEEN EFFECTED EASILY
you're helping and ends up i'm after you
WTF , i'm a bitch , i know

hey beloved earthlings , since i'm too bored , i'm hell yes back to blogging again
maybe this is what you earthlings call LIFELESS , i don't care

TOMORROW IS A HELL DAY cause it's SRI KL second Parents and Teachers days
i don't dare to imagine at all what my subjects' teacher going to tell my mom
but i can already feel that a big disaster is coming
for sure worst than TSUNAMI , EARTHQUAKE and etc.
My eardrums will vibrates until the max for sure
Whatever , i just hope that i can stand of the stress and nags tomorrow

Erm how do i these few days?
easy to describe with 1 simply words
E.M.O.I.N.G
Sorry babes and babeys
No matter how much of effort do you all put in , i just can't help it
I listen to almost all the hyper songs in my iPod, but i don't feel any better still
I force myself to smile everynight before i go to sleep like freaks
And the smile actually looks like i'm crying more, worst!!
I'm really stress out again
It's easier for me to cry than smiling and laughing
i'm losing all my appetite AGAIN
Don't worry , i won't fall off the stairs that love to kiss my ass so much
I actually ate my first meal around 3.00 today
Breakfast , i ate some bloody eww YOGHURT , taste like shit seriously!!
Lunch , was eating ice cream with JiaXuan (YUMMY)
I know i won't feel any better in upcoming weekends so i bought MAMEE MONSTER biscuits :)
honestly , i don't feel both of us are suitable to be couples cause i feel you both make a better one
He was saying that i don't trust him everytime when i talked about this
Seriously , he don't know how much i unsafe do i feel!!
Cause they're much more better then me :(
If i feel save , would i say all this bloody effing crap stuff?
he don't know i'm trying to appreciate him so so so much
Each and everyone humans that loves me wants me to appreciate him and YES , I'M DOING IT
I've never ever wanted to be too serious in this relationship from the start!!
But I don't know why everything ends up like this again?
I don't know what is so wrong with me AT ALL
i never know he actually changed my whole lifestyles!!
Mummy even started to suspect something wrong with me.
Am i so lifeless to quarels for fun?
No , i'm not. i wanna talk to him 24/7 if i can!!
Is it fun getting into Cald-Wars?
NAHH , IT SUCKS!!
I wanna text him so badly , but i know he ain't going to reply me either
Let him and me chill down , and then we'll see whether should we continue or do something of it.
If i can have any one minute of his now!! i just ask tell him can we stop this quarels?
For a pig like me , it's funny to know that i'm having insomnia (lack of sleeps)
I can't sleep everynight , am staring at the ceilings and singing songs
I feel nice either cause i haven't actually cried at all
Too tired to shed a tears even , no matter how much pain am i in
I wanna talk to someone that understand how i feel now!!
And no one i can go to actually
We ain't cute or fighting couples.
The cupid shoot the love arrow wrongly i guess
Is there anything i can do to fix the broken part?

WOW!! i never know JQ was an ex-DNA
:D he actually taught me pretty much stuff bout DNAs
Guess what does DNA stands for?
DNA stands for xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
do you know what actually happen that cause the whole previous DNA team to quit?
i know why :)
What so ever
Scribbles ends here for now

hoping that everything will be fine pretty soon

i need a girl , addiction

hey beloved earthlings , since i'm too bored , i'm hell yes back to blogging again
maybe this is what you earthlings call LIFELESS , i don't care

TOMORROW IS A HELL DAY cause it's SRI KL second Parents and Teachers days
i don't dare to imagine at all what my subjects' teacher going to tell my mom
but i can already feel that a big disaster is coming
for sure worst than TSUNAMI , EARTHQUAKE and etc.
My eardrums will vibrates until the max for sure
Whatever , i just hope that i can stand of the stress and nags tomorrow

Erm how do i these few days?
easy to describe with 1 simply words
E.M.O.I.N.G
Sorry babes and babeys
No matter how much of effort do you all put in , i just can't help it
I listen to almost all the hyper songs in my iPod, but i don't feel any better still
I force myself to smile everynight before i go to sleep like freaks
And the smile actually looks like i'm crying more, worst!!
I'm really stress out again
It's easier for me to cry than smiling and laughing
i'm losing all my appetite AGAIN
Don't worry , i won't fall off the stairs that love to kiss my ass so much
I actually ate my first meal around 3.00 today
Breakfast , i ate some bloody eww YOGHURT , taste like shit seriously!!
Lunch , was eating ice cream with JiaXuan (YUMMY)
I know i won't feel any better in upcoming weekends so i bought MAMEE MONSTER biscuits :)
honestly , i don't feel both of us are suitable to be couples cause i feel you both make a better one
He was saying that i don't trust him everytime when i talked about this
Seriously , he don't know how much i unsafe do i feel!!
Cause they're much more better then me :(
If i feel save , would i say all this bloody effing crap stuff?
he don't know i'm trying to appreciate him so so so much
Each and everyone humans that loves me wants me to appreciate him and YES , I'M DOING IT
I've never ever wanted to be too serious in this relationship from the start!!
But I don't know why everything ends up like this again?
I don't know what is so wrong with me AT ALL
i never know he actually changed my whole lifestyles!!
Mummy even started to suspect something wrong with me.
Am i so lifeless to quarels for fun?
No , i'm not. i wanna talk to him 24/7 if i can!!
Is it fun getting into Cald-Wars?
NAHH , IT SUCKS!!
I wanna text him so badly , but i know he ain't going to reply me either
Let him and me chill down , and then we'll see whether should we continue or do something of it.
If i can have any one minute of his now!! i just ask tell him can we stop this quarels?
For a pig like me , it's funny to know that i'm having insomnia (lack of sleeps)
I can't sleep everynight , am staring at the ceilings and singing songs
I feel nice either cause i haven't actually cried at all
Too tired to shed a tears even , no matter how much pain am i in
I wanna talk to someone that understand how i feel now!!
And no one i can go to actually
We ain't cute or fighting couples.
The cupid shoot the love arrow wrongly i guess
Is there anything i can do to fix the broken part?

WOW!! i never know JQ was an ex-DNA
:D he actually taught me pretty much stuff bout DNAs
Guess what does DNA stands for?
DNA stands for xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
do you know what actually happen that cause the whole previous DNA team to quit?
i know why :)
What so ever
Scribbles ends here for now

hoping that everything will be fine pretty soon

i need a girl , addiction