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Yesterday was awesome :) and my bii rocks

Hey guys , exam was held today
yes , COMPUTER SKILL & Geography
I didn't do well in any
i was using my machine gun to tem-bak from first until last questions
i know , that prove how hardworking of me indeed
well , get prepare to attend my funeral
i've screwed up the paper myself
regret for not revising but is too late now
the facts is i'm so going to FAIL for the papers
gonna get a big red egg on it :(

whatever , even the paper was suck
bii hurts me with his childish attidude
i'll just forgive him cause he's BLUR always
haha blur but cute in his own way
i know every guy has at least 1 thing that the girlfriend will hate about it
for now , i hate him spending most of the time on basketball!!
serious , SCREW basketball
i'm so gonna throw off all the balls i can find in my house soon
it show's how childish is him to go for competition a day before EXAM
and the worst part , exam is starting with BM papers
omg , he didn't appreciate the chance given to him to revise
i bloody hate him when he's emo =.=
where he acts like "i won't give a dam even the sky is going to collapse"
for now what he did that hurts me?
his attidude , he'll come to me when he want , and goes off when he want also
had him ever thought or think that i do need him to be there for me sometimes?
when i'm hurt , or facing millions of problems like now?
he don't know i'm so going to lose a friend because of him
he don't know i got no one to go to anymore when i'm super down nowdays
he don't know i'm seriously pissed and hurt until i can't sleep whole last night
please , at least try to sense am i real or just pretending , ok?
i hate it whne i'm trying to put in effort to understand him and try not to hurt him
and he's with his basketball and care nothing still other than BASKETBALL!!
but i really love the part that he's not sticking to any girls besides me :)
where i can stop jealousing habit :)
sorry Shanice babe , i know why he's not talking to you ,
cause i told him i hate guys sticking to girls :DD don't angry of him yea?
that's why i said bii is cute in his own way!!
he looks super blur but when he smile :) TeeHee the best part after all
if he can't handle me at my worst,then i'm sure as hell he don't deserve me at my best

yesterday was awesome and tiring
but the weather totally suck!!
went to few places
check out the photos in my facebook profile
i camwhore a lot since i'm bored , i can't text bii since he said his phone is with people
texting JANNISA instead

click to see the photos

second in x-pax youth 2010 basketball milo competition :)

Yesterday was awesome :) and my bii rocks

Hey guys , exam was held today
yes , COMPUTER SKILL & Geography
I didn't do well in any
i was using my machine gun to tem-bak from first until last questions
i know , that prove how hardworking of me indeed
well , get prepare to attend my funeral
i've screwed up the paper myself
regret for not revising but is too late now
the facts is i'm so going to FAIL for the papers
gonna get a big red egg on it :(

whatever , even the paper was suck
bii hurts me with his childish attidude
i'll just forgive him cause he's BLUR always
haha blur but cute in his own way
i know every guy has at least 1 thing that the girlfriend will hate about it
for now , i hate him spending most of the time on basketball!!
serious , SCREW basketball
i'm so gonna throw off all the balls i can find in my house soon
it show's how childish is him to go for competition a day before EXAM
and the worst part , exam is starting with BM papers
omg , he didn't appreciate the chance given to him to revise
i bloody hate him when he's emo =.=
where he acts like "i won't give a dam even the sky is going to collapse"
for now what he did that hurts me?
his attidude , he'll come to me when he want , and goes off when he want also
had him ever thought or think that i do need him to be there for me sometimes?
when i'm hurt , or facing millions of problems like now?
he don't know i'm so going to lose a friend because of him
he don't know i got no one to go to anymore when i'm super down nowdays
he don't know i'm seriously pissed and hurt until i can't sleep whole last night
please , at least try to sense am i real or just pretending , ok?
i hate it whne i'm trying to put in effort to understand him and try not to hurt him
and he's with his basketball and care nothing still other than BASKETBALL!!
but i really love the part that he's not sticking to any girls besides me :)
where i can stop jealousing habit :)
sorry Shanice babe , i know why he's not talking to you ,
cause i told him i hate guys sticking to girls :DD don't angry of him yea?
that's why i said bii is cute in his own way!!
he looks super blur but when he smile :) TeeHee the best part after all
if he can't handle me at my worst,then i'm sure as hell he don't deserve me at my best

yesterday was awesome and tiring
but the weather totally suck!!
went to few places
check out the photos in my facebook profile
i camwhore a lot since i'm bored , i can't text bii since he said his phone is with people
texting JANNISA instead

click to see the photos

second in x-pax youth 2010 basketball milo competition :)

hey readers
i'm BACK to my blogging bussness to post more
the previous post was a rush
sorry :(

ok as i've said , school life totally suck!!
i don't wanna mention a single thing about it cause it'll end me up washing face with tears again

People are asking me , hey , u're with "...." is it?
i know rumours are spreading in school
sorry bii if you see this , but i just wanna tell the truth only
after 6 months , i still can't totally get rid of him
but you're not replacing him , dun worry
i manage not to feel so numb after yesterday
every messages from you actually draw a smile on my face :D
so we'll see how later
yeap , i do feel sweet >.<
but it's just starting i don't know what will happen soon
but will try to remain cool no fights , peace :D

BASKETBALL NOW AND EVER?
yess :) 280510

hey readers
i'm BACK to my blogging bussness to post more
the previous post was a rush
sorry :(

ok as i've said , school life totally suck!!
i don't wanna mention a single thing about it cause it'll end me up washing face with tears again

People are asking me , hey , u're with "...." is it?
i know rumours are spreading in school
sorry bii if you see this , but i just wanna tell the truth only
after 6 months , i still can't totally get rid of him
but you're not replacing him , dun worry
i manage not to feel so numb after yesterday
every messages from you actually draw a smile on my face :D
so we'll see how later
yeap , i do feel sweet >.<
but it's just starting i don't know what will happen soon
but will try to remain cool no fights , peace :D

BASKETBALL NOW AND EVER?
yess :) 280510

i'm back to my bussness here
and sad o say few humans annoyed me again!!
AND yea , i dont feel like heading back to RM anymore
thank to both culprits
and also i manage to save my credits nwdays due to ...... (ignore this part)

how's school?
wasn't any better than used to be
go to school , waste time around , sleep , eat , go toilet , go back home
SOBS , i just hate life nowdays
i'm not being emo but seriously i try to find the meaning of life now

ok proud to say that i'm trying with him
i don't know whether the feeling really exist or what
but trying to fall for him , you know
i don't fall for people before relationship start
ok , bii will try ok?
btw it's freaking expensive to text bii
lol but much more cheaper compare to him which cost 50sen/sms
<3 <3

OMG , OUG? it's annoying , just sthu

ok , it was the worst week ever
i just don't know what to describe everything as i'm "blur blur"
BLOG IS NOT DEAD , I REPEAT , NEVER HAPPEN :D
Blog will be alive as long as i'm breathing on planet earth

i went back to Mahadi yesterday
i didn't change at all
still as random as i can
as loud as possible
super crazy as ever
i do whatever i want , no people will judge :D
it was awesome , i saw Hannah , Kimmy , Sally , Kanmani , Ari , Thivaa , Rhysson , Kavithaa , Shanice , Azyrl , Saras , Kobi , Ruben , Sathish .P , Sathish , Sce Chern , Suet yee , Justin , Yang , AND MANY MANY MANY MANY MANY MANY MANY MANY MORE :DDDD
Imagine how awesome is it?
I promise i'll head back again twice this year :D
Ok people are getting fatter , thinner , prettier and taller :D
thx but i'm not hot/pretty/tall , but WE'RE :DDDDDDDDDDDDDD
i'm only perfect when i'm with you sakkais!!
ok sad to say that i didnt see TIINESH and DJ
Oh yea , to you-know-who-you're
please don't be so suprised when you see me next time , don't say F*** please :(
it sounds like you dislike me but aww you're getting super tall 184/5 is just perfect for YOU
haha , LOL it's ok cause we lost each other number :)

CHIAOS~~
exam is around the corner , let's revise "facebook" more <3

boo , i'm back again
from now on i don't think i'll be active anymore since exam is arond the corner
faints , i haven't revise anything still
bunches of folios need to finish and hand in by this week i think

so for now , no mood for BF BF thingy :)
and why don't people just don't believe that i'm with me only?
no lies , they're just my friends :)
ok ok , besides that i realise being numb is not that bad actually
i've actually stop thinking of that idiout :D
aww , good good
thx to hannah
for teaching me that let Mr.Perfect look for you , for now you just need to enjoy your life
ok , need to say that i've actually lost all my interests in one of the him :)
keep being annoying and dont stop using the F word , one day , i'll punch you , who knows..
i'm kinda annoyed by 2 love sicks freaks
Gary and u-know-who-u're
OMG , just control yourself a bit , pls?

for now
i find it suck to transfer school
i've lost many friendships :( as in nearly all
how good if i'm a mahadians still~~
even we're talking but i can't see anymore trust that we used to have D:

HAPPY B'DAE TAEYANG
you know i'm with you always :D

boo , i'm back again
from now on i don't think i'll be active anymore since exam is arond the corner
faints , i haven't revise anything still
bunches of folios need to finish and hand in by this week i think

so for now , no mood for BF BF thingy :)
and why don't people just don't believe that i'm with me only?
no lies , they're just my friends :)
ok ok , besides that i realise being numb is not that bad actually
i've actually stop thinking of that idiout :D
aww , good good
thx to hannah
for teaching me that let Mr.Perfect look for you , for now you just need to enjoy your life
ok , need to say that i've actually lost all my interests in one of the him :)
keep being annoying and dont stop using the F word , one day , i'll punch you , who knows..
i'm kinda annoyed by 2 love sicks freaks
Gary and u-know-who-u're
OMG , just control yourself a bit , pls?

for now
i find it suck to transfer school
i've lost many friendships :( as in nearly all
how good if i'm a mahadians still~~
even we're talking but i can't see anymore trust that we used to have D:

HAPPY B'DAE TAEYANG
you know i'm with you always :D

blah
i'm just not happy at all!!
before that , if you hate XIN RUO when she's emo , then please click "x" on the right top

ok guys i need say that i'm suffering
suffering till the max , when i do anything u just appear on my mind
and everything seems to be upside down ,
my language sounds 'weird'
i cannot focus on anything besides thinking that i want the PAST super badly
my mom start complaining that i'm not putting effort in my studies
cause i just cannot concentrate now!
ok who understand how much am i'm suffering now?
hais , i don't know what to do at all
i'm so blur and the worst is i don't know who to go to except GARY kor
sometimes i asked back myself do i really don't mind bout the lies?
i don't know cause i'm freaking blur now
all my feelings had just mixing up
and i find everything so not right!!
i shouldn't be thinking of i want the 'pass' back
but i just cannot stop myself from wanna get it back
i'm trying to stop myself from ruining peoples life
don't wanna be a bitch again :(
red-bean had been repeating that 2010 - 2012 year gonna be super important year for me
i knw it is , but i just cannot focus!!
all i wanna do is stay away from steading with anyone for this few years
cause i dont think i can let go so easily and will be not fair to the other one

suffering is all i can say
lifes suck
people hates me i guess :(
i'm so lifeless
i deserve it , dont i?

PS: i just wanna stay away from him :(

OMGGGGGGOSH
life is tooooo awesome , serious!! no jokes :)

not bout gadgets but
1. i finally brave enough to talked to baby , TeeHeeeeeeee :DD
2. so freaking excited cause i've actually bought Jay's special edition album , OMGGGG :DD
3. SU JU 4th album , new song , BonaMana are released!! GOSSSSSSSSSSSH (i'm addicted to it)
4. i'm married to my babey young bae :)) awwwww , SarangHaeyo
5. i'm addicted to 4 "yang" actually without me realising it
6. i've finally join LEO CLUBBBBBBBBBB , fainting...
7. i enjoyed my very first ko-ko in my new school , its super funnnnn!!
8. kissing (lips to lips) with someone in front of Sugar-Mama teacher :)
9. i've never ever ponteng like this before , (serious)

ok , i just gonna say that life is too awesome (if you ignore all the suck part)
talking and playing with someone i'm attracted to everyday :)
get to talk to baby still
get to ponteng , hide in toilet and staircase , being chased by apple head all the way <3

I JUST DON'T UNDERSTAND WHY WE'RE NOT FREE TO USE FACEBOOK AND BLOGS
why can't school just stop peaking into our blogs and facebook profiles!!
do you know what is co salled F.R.E.E.D.O.M.
and it's our own wish to write what so ever in out blogs and facebook
you got NO RIGHTS at all to actually take action!!
please learn how to respect us , cause we're a human and deserve to be respect

i'm kinda sleepy now

weather here is so windy and suitable to sleep :D

so bye guys!!

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lol joking

i'll finish up the post before sleeping

actually i don't have enough time to sleep now as i need to get ready

i'm not joking cause i really on't know today is Mother's Day

So i need to prepare and head to Ah Yat Restaurant later

Haiz , head ache , don't know what to dress also :(

This whole week is so so boring

all i had do is stay at home and sleep , eat , watch tv , online

sobs , life seems to be so meaningless

ROFL :DD

L>KEYCHAIN/DOLL :)

CAN'T WAIT TO GET MY ALBUM <3

CRAVES!!

i'm kinda sleepy now
weather here is so windy and suitable to sleep :D
so bye guys!!

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lol joking
i'll finish up the post before sleeping

actually i don't have enough time to sleep now as i need to get ready
i'm not joking cause i really on't know today is Mother's Day
So i need to prepare and head to Ah Yat Restaurant later
Haiz , head ache , don't know what to dress also :(

This whole week is so so boring
all i had do is stay at home and sleep , eat , watch tv , online
sobs , life seems to be so meaningless

ROFL :DD

L>KEYCHAIN/DOLL :)

CAN'T WAIT TO GET MY ALBUM <3

CRAVES!!

OMG , i love the way she answer back :D

Oh hell, i'm back again
Fever getting worst than before , nothing i can do or say for now

Whatever , life seems to remain suck still

LIEW KEN , DO YOU KNOW HOW BRAINLESS ARE YOU?
WE HATE YOU STARDS!! :P

OMG , i love the way she answer back :D

Oh hell, i'm back again
Fever getting worst than before , nothing i can do or say for now

Whatever , life seems to remain suck still

LIEW KEN , DO YOU KNOW HOW BRAINLESS ARE YOU?
WE HATE YOU STARDS!! :P

Woof Woof , Miao Miao
I'm back AGAIN

GOOD NEWS
i'm much better now
thx for all the wishes humans
I'll be back in wherever i should next monday

I asked myself again and AGAIN and A.G.A.I.N. What's next? What will i do next? What's going on in this meaningless life now? i don't know Well , life seems to be sooo meaningless and boring after all . HEy guys , i'm tired of receiving that look from all of you!! Everyone used to tell me that i'm so lucky to be in this "family" but i'm not!! i'm suffering like hell. just because i faked a smile 24/7 doesn't mean i'm happy at all. All i've ever wanted is some peace in my life. I won't mind living a quiet and boring life . Life which is free from sorrowness. Free from trouble as well. I don't know what's going on now . And i really not that interested to know what's going on as well.

I've been crying everynight before i fall asleep. I used to have 'panda eyes' . but now i'm having 'panda + goldfish eyes' . I try to hide all the pain from people not because i'm tough enough to get over it by my own. Humans , i've never ever saw red-bean cry so bad before in my previous life. Just pray that everything gonna be fine . Hopefully she's able to wait for me , to bring her out from all the pains. I hate it when she keep apologising to me because everything wasn't her fault at all. She had been trying her best to bring us back together , but the fear in me ain't going to be vanished in any day of my life. Suddenly , all the trust dissapear again , i don't know who are the one that can understand whatever i'm going through now.

Obviously , everything are not as simple as i've ever thought.

I prefer keeping quiet , stick to few of them and finish up rest of the days