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TeAmo

Moo Moo , Bek bek , Quek Quek , Miao Miao , Woof Woof
YES! i'm back again
So Sick and tired
I'm nothing , except someone simple and imperfect trying so hard to live her life meaningful
Guys , bad news to share which is
I'M SICK D:
I'm suspected for Dengue and ..... H1N1
Don't worry , i'll be fine , i promise

but for now , i just wanna eat BURGER , B.U.R.G.E.R!!
UNDERSTAND? i wanna eat MCD McChicken Burger!!

I wanna rest now
Well update more sooooooooooooon

i'm really tired of leaving
i've painted my life with black and white again
i really don't know how to trust anyone anymore
i see people betraying each other
even their family members nearly betray them
you always say you're mature?
crap hell , you've never ever went through whatever i've been through before
calling yourself mature cause everyone come to you?
crap , that's because you're nice to everyone . NOT MATURE

red and green bean ,
ok .. i want to get out from the mess
i wanna run , run , run
i wanna sleep in sweet dreams forever
i wanna be the one "gg"

i can't believe whatever i've did
i've cleaned up the mess
i baked something awesome

guys
i apologise for not updating my blog for so many days
within these days , FML
can anyone feel how am i feeling now?
oh yea , i think i'll make my blog private as long as i can most probaly
DO YOU KNOW?
MY FUCKING ANNOYING + IRRITATING BITCHES cousins actually view my blog
and they'll repeat every single things to my MOM
ok , from now on i won't call my mom as mom in my blog , i'll replace her as red-bean
and my fcker dad as green bean

lets see what the hell happen
all i can say is family suck
cause they never ever will come first
i've been telling lies to myself that how perfect are my family
where actually were so not TRUE and im suffering every second of my life
i'm proud to say not only i have panda eyes , but also gold fish eyes now!!
WTH , life seem to be so suck always
and never ever had change since the day i was born
every decision i've made was a mistake
i'm always the main reason of problems , i've created enough troubles for everyone
i gonna apologise here for whatever problems i've created
SORRY

i try to mix around in this new environment
but people were not friendly at all
all they know is $ and face
when you try to mix with them , they'll give you "WTF" and "you're weird" look
i'm tired of it , i hate comparing it
i hate people judging me easily without trying to understand how i feel all this time!!
if you people ever know how awesome is DUDETTES & Mahadians , i bet you'll shut your big mouth
i can see no one that seems to understand me as much as divya do
i can see no one that seems to be so funny and awesome as much as hannah
i can see no one that seems to be so crazy as kanmani
i can see no one that seems to be as sweet as jannisa
i can see no one that seems to be so trustable like chua
i can see no one that seems to be having so much trust in me like tiinesh
i can see no one that seems to be as cute and genius as thivaa
guys , i love mahadians
and i know i can't get out from this school to go back there anymore
sometimes , when i look back at those memories , i tend to cry silently , screaming in my heart
no one updates my playlist like what divya did now
no more secrets being keep by 5 girls same time
no more insulting bizu together
no more cuci mata
no more talks bout how our 'red beans' treat us

i was a super random and loud person , ain't i right dudettes?
i had never ever stop telling stories or laugh till tears burst out
remember , you guys said " when i laugh , the whole building gonna break down "
earthquake is coming!!
i remember how you guys keep shouting at me , asking me to keep quiet during fellowship
yea , for both years fellowship , you people had been repeating the same line
well , i kinda miss those days preparing name-tag for Ultraman and Foxrod
i've never ever been pissed that you guys don't talk much to me nowadays
and i know we love and miss each other 24/7
no matter how fun is it in SRI KL , RM still the best among my school memories

i don't know how long will i lose my sweet smile
i don't know how long will i stick to my emo + cool face
red and green bean , please stop this
don't force me to get out fom this world
red bean had never ever tried to put herself into my situation and understand
all she's doing is persuading me to sacrifice myself and fit in
i really don't know whats going on now
it'k killing me inside
green bean is even more worst
i got nothing to say as i'm really dissapointed with what had happen
FINE FINE , i realise my mistake
i shouldn't had actually exist in this world
i'm giving up
please , leave me alone and let me have peace
i realise sitting alone is the best now
no quarel , no shouts , no cries , no laughter
i'm fine with it

guys , i'm exhausted
i wanna give up my whole life
oh yea, don't text or call me cause you're actually wasting your credits only

ok guys , i've just cried and i'm back here to BLOG about my life without him
sometimes i wonder why did i fall for him so deeply?
i've couple few time fews but i've never love someone like this before
that's why i always consider you as my first relationship

i feel guilty for what i did to you
yea , i shouldn't had asked you to grab on "your no on understand you" life
that's rude and bitchy , i know
so on thursday , i've use all my almost allmy strength to hit the button sent
i asked dk , can i talk to you again? cause i'm dieing of living my life with plenty of "?" everyday
thx god , dk said you had never ever blame me for what i did
i feel like talking to you again
but i don't know is it the right time now (even dk said i shld)
anything , i've actually wrote down what i wanna tell you cause i've too much to tell
i'm even more blur now
i'm much more closer to that guy that attracts me , and i wanna talk to baby
argh , life sucks
facing too many problems now
friendships , families (with my parents) , and both of him =.=
screw my life

PS: i've bought a laptop :D , thx and ily daddy

its a short post btw

i'm back here
hello readers , i know you miss me :D
sometimes i feel like blocking some of you who actually spam my facebook
(you know who you are)

anything :D
currently i'm so madly deeply in love with SRI KL and SRI KL+rians
and i've never ever regret transfering to my new school
if my parents gonna give me 1 million and force me to transfer back to my ex- school ,
i won't want to.. (opps)
sometimes , yoo'll find the meaning of life in a new environment
LOL i know you guys know bout me well..
i don't fall for people easily , that's why i'm cold-blooded
i might be attaracted but not IN LOVE
i'm even easier to be attracted if he's my type :D
yea , i'm actually attracted to one of the guy in my new school
well , for others he's not hot , but for me he's perfect
EXACTLY my taste
and i wouldn't allow myself to do stuff that i'll abash myself
sometimes i'll just check out whether where is him , what is him doing
but obviously i hate having eye-to-eye contact with him , lol you know how i'll blushed
and i used to have it before this , and now i'm more to looking at books then looking around
trying to prevent those blushing stuff :DD
ok , i don't talk much to him and i think maybe once a moth we'll talk :(
btw , i love staying quietly in the corner and let him to attract me <3

HAHAHA , i love the way i'm being now
and lol i repeat , I'M NOT IN LOVE

Get a life , B
You've actually just mess with the wrong person
LOL , do you love all the craps i've created for you?
Are you suffering?
i'm laughing out loud behind of you every second
Who you think you are?
MY FATHER? MY MOTHER? MY SISTER?
argh , you're just another B that i know
and all the craps haven't end yet
Get ready for the next meal te be served
i really can't stand of all the bullshits you created for ME
and obviously it almost ruin my pretty good mood everyday :(

And now guys
do you know any softaware that i can undo delated photos?
well , i've punch my head for don't how many thousands times after i delated the photos
After the first break up , i've finally delated the photos
and now everytime whe ni turn on my SE phone
i just hope that your photo will appear as my screen saver still :'(
I'm wondering that my brain actually contain what craps?
WHY DID I DELATED MY ONE AND ONLY BABY'S PHOTOS
Guys , maybe you'll think that i still haven't let him
And i still have feelings towards him
to be honest if i say i've let him go 100% , then let me tell you
IT'S A LIE , Sometimes it'll be better if you stay in the world of lies that you've created
then facing the truth and keep suffering
Maybe during 2011's today , i'll really let him go
and few times i've thought of having relationship such as DK's and Kim's
but yea i didn't
and thank god for stopping me to :DD
To me now , he's just part of the beautiful memories
where i've learn to grow up
where i've learn what is so-called "L.O.V.E"
and i've been considering you as my first
even i've tried before , but everytime were more to pity-ness then loving
your maturity , coolness , emo freak (not emo when you're with me) and cuteness
lol , part of why did i fall for you so easily and deeply
sometimes i really miss those days where we'll stick to the phone and keep texting each other
until the phone bill explode end of the end :D
and your daddy will fired you like siao , and i'll be teasing you still <3<3 serious it's tired to hate someone so i've finally give up and i'll treat you like someone who had created some awesome memories in my life and to be honest , i've been with almost the 12 horoscope guys flirts and get together.. nearly all of them but the awesomeness that i can feel is in you even we don't talk sweet stuff often LOL but i still prefer sticking to you , bully you like hell :DD baby , i've finally stop bulling people cause when i bully someone , it'll remind me of you
Everytime , when i'm hungry , i prefer having instant noodles
At least that is the only good stuff i've did for you , i guess
you've cried and so do I , and i've cried more than you
ever since we're together i think almost every week i'll be crying under my blanket

Yes isn't correct , Acceptable is the best :DD I've got this from someone

P/S: baby , i still wanna hear TeAmo and Baby from you still and that day during we break , yea , you didn't even say ILY for the last time as what you've did before. Can see that those previous break was because of you're tired of the unmature ME , not because you dont (L) me anymore , but this time everything is different :(( i regret for saying those stuff to you , if i ever had a chance again , i'll never repeat this..

ok guys feel proud of yourself
BIG CLAPS for all for you
and i love you people
after you guys scolded , shouted , begged and so so on
LOL , finally i manage to stop myself

from calling myself a bitch
from feeling guilty
from not feeling much more happppy than now :DD

I'm not a bitch (i know)
i'm so bad obviously all because of him
because of his maturity , coolness
and the part of cuteness where i'm the only one allowed to feel it (before)
for now , i'll thank god for bringing me to him and allow him to stayed in my heart for 1 year
even now everything won't be the same as before anymore
but i've never ever regret about this relationship
because of you , i've grow up :D
because of you , i'm finally much more mature and COLD-BLOODED
thank you baby , i love you (as a stranger)
to hear that you recover so fast doesn't make me happy at all (before)
but from now on , i'm glad for you , and i'll just stay silently in a corner of your life
without you realising i'll be praying for all the good stuff to happen in your life
obviously you deserve to be treated good and fair also!!
so which means from now on , jesus gonna bless your "no one understand you life"
and i actually feel proud with myself :DD
i still treat you nice because you treated me seriously too good

ok guys feel proud of yourself
BIG CLAPS for all for you
and i love you people
after you guys scolded , shouted , begged and so so on
LOL , finally i manage to stop myself

from calling myself a bitch
from feeling guilty
from not feeling much more happppy than now :DD

I'm not a bitch (i know)
i'm so bad obviously all because of him
because of his maturity , coolness
and the part of cuteness where i'm the only one allowed to feel it (before)
for now , i'll thank god for bringing me to him and allow him to stayed in my heart for 1 year
even now everything won't be the same as before anymore
but i've never ever regret about this relationship
because of you , i've grow up :D
because of you , i'm finally much more mature and COLD-BLOODED
thank you baby , i love you (as a stranger)
to hear that you recover so fast doesn't make me happy at all (before)
but from now on , i'm glad for you , and i'll just stay silently in a corner of your life
without you realising i'll be praying for all the good stuff to happen in your life
obviously you deserve to be treated good and fair also!!
so which means from now on , jesus gonna bless your "no one understand you life"
and i actually feel proud with myself :DD
i still treat you nice because you treated me seriously too good

Hey readers , i'm back

Life was kinda suck since many bad stuff happen . Quarels among FRIENDS :( . Readers , let's just pray that all of them will be fine after this . Obviously i love all of them so i'm kinda DOWN to see them quarels . Eventhough all of them do have mistakes , but that doesn't mean its GAME OVER .

HEY , finally i realise sometimes i'm really to kind and good towards people. Yea , too kind until i pushed my own beloved baby to someone's shoulder. Humans , don't you think i'm totally suitable to call as a dumb dumb brainless human? I've just realised , that no one treats me good even i treated them way more then they deserve. LOL , i've learn my lesson
AND THE MORAL VALUE OF THE STORIES IS , Treat people by how they're treating you :DD . BTW , i really miss Kevin and Shawn . haha , i just miss the way how we've flirt , ain't you Shawn? Yea dare enough to flirt in front of baby .Sometimes i really suspect do you really deserve to be call as his best friend when you actually flirt with his girl in front of HIM. Yea others that don't know actually thought i'm with you somemore!! HAHAHAHA... To be honest if i've know you earlier , i'll fall for you but not your friend. At least we've much more stuff to talk compare to me and him . even though i just talked to you for 1 weeks , obviously , it is one of the best part of my 2009 holiday. Shawn actually can flirt TOO WELL , and i'll ranked him as the best flirter i've ever flirt with until today :D But to be honest , he's also a player :D dates few girls on same time. What bout kevin? oh yea , one of the best game partner i've ever had. Leading me in every single stuff that i don't know and he's special :DD . Daryl? yea i also miss him!! Telling me about my ex's , his words actually works like he had just slap me and i realise all my mistakes!! Eugene? yea miss him too , how the hell he bullied him seriously LOL !! Scribbles my NAME on his science and math exercise book :DD WTC!! he actually need to re-do the whole book last year around June . FUCK STARDS , WHY DO I MISS ALL THE ACSIANS (anglo-barker road) SO MUCH AND BADLY!! i don't know :( and also i miss him a lil bit.. i've just finish viewing his facebook profile , "EVERYTHING IS BORING" , i don't know why , even i'm numb but i've actually shed few drop of tears.

In my world of black and white , i can only see you :(

BLOOD TYPE 'A' obviously AWESOME!!

Wondering shld i be like kim? and have a relationship like kim and dk??
argh i don't know!!

Guys i know i'm much more cool + emo and thx for calling me as cold-blooded creature
I don't need a reason to hate people ,ain't i??

Guys , i'm spinning and i feel like vomiting whole day
And obviously i've lost all my appetite
Yea ashma and gastric attack :'(
To be honest i hope for someone to be with me when i'm so SICK
Ashma , haiz i've born with it so nothing much to say
Gastric seriously suck
i think everyone of you know i've put down weight after break
yea i've been skipping meals everyday :(
and now im suffering with it
i don't know who can i call or text

i was hoping at least u'll be with me
and i won't mind even you're keeping quiet
but let it be this way!!
even you know i'm sick and ask me to take care
obviously my reply will be fuck out bastards
you don't deserve to talk to me like someone that care of me
YOU're the main reason why am i suffering now

And the story came into my mind
Vannesa lost his bf and you're off to replace him
HEY , what bout me?
i really hope that i'm strong enough to get rid of you
i don't know why,
but you just take care of her for 2 weeks
and you've actually fall for her
yea i feel you're way more of pity+ing her
and i really don't understand
how much of effort did you put in to get ME
and i'm so easily dump
i've rejected you at least 5/6 times
an you dump me within 1 minutes!!
Vannesa i hate you!!
you've actually took my baby , dar , daddy away
i don't know why did i agree to let you take care of her
maybe my kindness really cause me to lose everything

guys just pray hard that i'll recover soon : /

i've stay up late until 5.00 yesterday
Guhh , screw those calls
My ear hurts badly , i was on phone from 9.30 until 1.00 with few different human
I've learn my lesson and the moral of the story is
SWITCH OFF MY PHONE BY 8.00am EVERY SATURDAY NIGHT!!
Yea , i know i need to do it badly
Try to imagine , people called me and earphone was on from those calls start until it ends
And i'm REALLY BUSY!!
Ear and mouth entertain those talkative callers while hands keeped replying messages

Finally i manage to put down the phone but i'm too tired until i can't rest properly
ARGH , again i went online to watch some dramas :)
Morning around 8.45 my bloody dumb dumb sister woke up and keep moving here and there
ARGH , STARDS STARDS STARDS STARDS
I feel like giving her flying kick and punch
Last , wanna throw her off from my ROOM , i mean OUR room
God i won't mind even it wont be as big as the room now , but i REALLY HATE SHARING
Especially with my SISTER!!
She dump her clothes here and there , EVRYWHERE!!
It really pissed me off when you can find her stuff in MY closet!! MINE!! = =
I bet all of you actually know i need more space to store my clothes and she's trying to use MINE
Had MCD as lunch yesterday
GOSSH , i've actually spend my grandpa , maid , sister and brother MCD!!
I was too angry and i sat down alone finish up 20 pieces of NUGGET
Yes , you're right human i'm EATING NUGGET
Humans , i just hope than someone kind would like to take a look in my sister's closet
I've like throw away 2 big plastic bad of stuff including her rubbish and CLOTHES
I really don't understand why is she still keeping some of her standard 1 clothes
HEY GUYS , SHES NOW STANDARD 6!!
Imagine how long she've been keeping it

And now my shoulders seriously hurts badly
Cannot imagine how badly my tissue had tear
Haiz , credits to my mom for forcing me to go gym with her

I think i've been laughing and smiling too much nowdays ( like SOHAI , i knw )
LOL , thx to FREDDY LOKE =d
But i bet i can't keep moving like this
Serious , even i'm not tired , i'll need to stop
i feel like as if i'm the next one going to win the trip to HOSPITAL BAHAGIA
Anything , i've stop smiling much since 4 days ago
Guys , do you think i should forgive them?
Forgive them even they hurts me deeply?
Today when i woke up , as usual i went online to check my Facebook
I was stunned for minutes when i saw
"YOU HAVE A FRIEND REQUEST FROM MACKINTOSH TEO"
Gossh , i nearly faint
I've defriended her in facebook about 2 weeks ago and she actually realised i did it so FAST!!
Yea , finally i know that she did VIEW my profile..
I'm still thinking should i approve or leave it there like some other friend request?
She did nothing to me , but shes keeping in touch with DK , DK and Edward are close friends
YEA , much closer than me.. THIS BELOVED SIS THAT HE KNOW FOR 1 YEARS++
Obviously i miss Tomato and Potato badly
I always feel guilty for lieing to them
I've block them but i told them i can't come online
When i think back that how much she care for me , SERIOUS i don't know what to do also
Yea she care a lot for me , and did called me from Singapore just to talk to me =D
I know i promise all my readers that i won't actually look back at those horrible time
I guess i really need to sit back and think probaly
Do they deserve to be treated like this just because FUCKING TEO ZAIYANG EDWARD hurts me?
You people can see how much i hate him cause i've never scolded him with any vulgar words

Humans , i know i'm a love failure
I've walked out from those craps he created for me
Obviouly i'm totally numb now towards anyone
But i just wanna say , i'm happy with they way i'm being now
And god i'm begging to you
I don't need anymore spotlight or attention
I just wanna live my life quietly
So please stop doing all this craps to me , I HATE IT!!
LOL , sometimes i really love school , cause theres somewhere where i don't attract attention

Off to finish up my FOLIO
Went shopping for some stuff just now with DADDY and MUMMY

Blog is dead due to my cell L (L stand for LAZY)
Btw i'm forced to update as readers were asking me whether when will my blog be updated!!
Let's see what i did this week
Monday went to school as usual , Ugh..SUCK
Tuesday slack and went to ARKIB NEGARA with Denise and Lee Sian
LOL , obviously all of us have fun till the max
HAHA , i kinda miss my MUMMY's PINK AND WHITE STRAP SHIRT!!
Wedenesday slack from school due to my laziness and a lil bit not feeling well
Thursday oh yea aprilful , to be honest i'm serious some lil cutie angel
I didn't prank or be prank by anyone =D
Credits to my cleverness
Friday , plan to go swimming but last minute call off :)
Had lunch with Yan Jun in BBQ Plaza
Did nothing after that as i'm wasting my PRECIOUS time following her here and there

Humans , i've just re-created again my PLANS and WANTS
Obviously , i won't mind not care if you're going to call me arrogant pigs or ugly toads
Dei , i've did everything for you , so please stop complaint!!
i know i wont do all that craps to them anymore but i did it for your SAKE again!!
LOL , let's see what i've changed in my new list

Craves:

LAPTOP
CAMERA
NEW ROXY PURSE , HANDBAG , STATIONARY POUCH

New Aims:

7A 7A 7A 7A 7A 7A 7A
More $$$$$ :)
gonna get it again =D (S.E.C.R.E.T)

Yea , i won't be the old me anymore
Gonna change into someone better
Staying quietly in corner cause i'm tired of being loud btw

Blog is dead due to my cell L (L stand for LAZY)
Btw i'm forced to update as readers were asking me whether when will my blog be updated!!
Let's see what i did this week
Monday went to school as usual , Ugh..SUCK
Tuesday slack and went to ARKIB NEGARA with Denise and Lee Sian
LOL , obviously all of us have fun till the max
HAHA , i kinda miss my MUMMY's PINK AND WHITE STRAP SHIRT!!
Wedenesday slack from school due to my laziness and a lil bit not feeling well
Thursday oh yea aprilful , to be honest i'm serious some lil cutie angel
I didn't prank or be prank by anyone =D
Credits to my cleverness
Friday , plan to go swimming but last minute call off :)
Had lunch with Yan Jun in BBQ Plaza
Did nothing after that as i'm wasting my PRECIOUS time following her here and there

Humans , i've just re-created again my PLANS and WANTS
Obviously , i won't mind not care if you're going to call me arrogant pigs or ugly toads
Dei , i've did everything for you , so please stop complaint!!
i know i wont do all that craps to them anymore but i did it for your SAKE again!!
LOL , let's see what i've changed in my new list

Craves:

LAPTOP
CAMERA
NEW ROXY PURSE , HANDBAG , STATIONARY POUCH

New Aims:

7A 7A 7A 7A 7A 7A 7A
More $$$$$ :)
gonna get it again =D (S.E.C.R.E.T)

Yea , i won't be the old me anymore
Gonna change into someone better
Staying quietly in corner cause i'm tired of being loud btw