i'm so lazy to update honestly
and well i've skipped for almost 18 days
SCREW MY LAZINESS
well i was lazy to update due to my studies actually
i'm updating my works frm JANUARY until now , this second everything that i've skipped
imagine i finished 4/5 essay with 2 hours , FREAK
so i'm really exhausted everyday .
and i'll sleep like a kid everynight , hugging so tight to my teddies
afraid it'll be steal by come culprits
i'm afraid of facing the day everday . i'm so afraid i'll do some mistakes again
call me coward . i don't care
i've never been perfect , imperfectness had existed in me ever since the day i started breathing
I DID TRIED TO ERASE ALL THE IMPERFECTNESS ,but nothing works
everyday i'm facing moodswings
i might be hyper now ,but i'm eventually low next second
people find me weird but i just can't help it nor i give a dam at times
almost everyday i thinked of the "problem"
i'm so not over it actually
it's not matter whether we're still together or not , but the trust i've put in you
you and J means a lot to me in a different way
you're the first one i've ever thinked of being serious
i'm really putting extremely lot of efforts to fall for you
it's quite hard actually , cause you're very "different"
Mr Dr. Jekyll and Mr.Hyde :D
according to your beloved sister , you might be shy . i wont deny that
but everything are upside down now
J needed me a lot and i MUST be there for him
i really didn't know that you hated him so deeply
i was blaming you for being childish also , sorry
but when i get to know the truth , i put myself in your shoes
and i find you actually tolerated a lot =D
if i were you , trust me J wouldn't be breathing on this planet anymore
HOW CAN SOMEONE STAND OF ALL HIS CRUSHES ARE BEING CLOSED WITH HIS BESTIES?
I REPEAT , all crushes
J never mean to do that and he don't know how things happen also
SO GOD , please stop fooling us
well i totally salute you two guys
you hate each other more than anything , and still pretend to be so closed in front of others
i won't deny the relationship was a big mess ever since we're together
and i'll list this as the worst relationship i've ever had
but you know what?
i've experienced a lot of fun in it
especially the cute part of him which is only discovered by ME only :D
no one believe his being cute , but i do
even his own sister or mom never see that part of him
honestly i've never ever tried to change my mind in a relationship
but when it comes to you , i did tried to changed
and when i get use to it , that's when all the craps happened
and now , i wanna solve everything and get back to my normal life
i can't stand of something that hunts me for so long
it do kills me a little day by day
maybe it's just my trend when i want to get serious , the first relationship will never works
we'll need to break and start al over again
the problem now , i don't think i'll want to take the risk anymore or maybe i do
Sorry kiddies
jie jie never mean to break the basketball pole :(
i was playing basketball that day and i dunk , and the pole are broken now . GRRR
HUMANS I'M SO SICKED
MY BONES ARE LIEK CRACKING
MY FOREHEAD ARE SO WARN
I'M FREEZING HERE BUT SUN ARE BURNING SO BIG OUTSIDE THERE
EVERYTHING ARE SPINNING
MY NOSE ARE GETTING FROM PALE INTO PINKISH COLOUR
MY HEAD ARE REALLY ACHING BADLY
i look strong but i'm actually weak
i'm getting sick even more often after getting into this whole new year of busy life
i need LONG and TIGHT hugs from babes
SHCL IS MY BELOVED MAMA NOW AND EVER
Datuk SHCL
PS : i love anything to do with star shape . I love starfish , starfruit and stars . but rainbow still come first.
Datin XR
