Chill Pill is .... ♥ Saturday, May 1, 2010
Woof Woof , Miao Miao
I'm back AGAIN
GOOD NEWS
i'm much better now
thx for all the wishes humans
I'll be back in wherever i should next monday
I asked myself again and AGAIN and A.G.A.I.N. What's next? What will i do next? What's going on in this meaningless life now? i don't know Well , life seems to be sooo meaningless and boring after all . HEy guys , i'm tired of receiving that look from all of you!! Everyone used to tell me that i'm so lucky to be in this "family" but i'm not!! i'm suffering like hell. just because i faked a smile 24/7 doesn't mean i'm happy at all. All i've ever wanted is some peace in my life. I won't mind living a quiet and boring life . Life which is free from sorrowness. Free from trouble as well. I don't know what's going on now . And i really not that interested to know what's going on as well.
I've been crying everynight before i fall asleep. I used to have 'panda eyes' . but now i'm having 'panda + goldfish eyes' . I try to hide all the pain from people not because i'm tough enough to get over it by my own. Humans , i've never ever saw red-bean cry so bad before in my previous life. Just pray that everything gonna be fine . Hopefully she's able to wait for me , to bring her out from all the pains. I hate it when she keep apologising to me because everything wasn't her fault at all. She had been trying her best to bring us back together , but the fear in me ain't going to be vanished in any day of my life. Suddenly , all the trust dissapear again , i don't know who are the one that can understand whatever i'm going through now.
Obviously , everything are not as simple as i've ever thought.
I prefer keeping quiet , stick to few of them and finish up rest of the days