guys
i apologise for not updating my blog for so many days
within these days , FML
can anyone feel how am i feeling now?
oh yea , i think i'll make my blog private as long as i can most probaly
DO YOU KNOW?
MY FUCKING ANNOYING + IRRITATING BITCHES cousins actually view my blog
and they'll repeat every single things to my MOM
ok , from now on i won't call my mom as mom in my blog , i'll replace her as red-bean
and my fcker dad as green bean
lets see what the hell happen
all i can say is family suck
cause they never ever will come first
i've been telling lies to myself that how perfect are my family
where actually were so not TRUE and im suffering every second of my life
i'm proud to say not only i have panda eyes , but also gold fish eyes now!!
WTH , life seem to be so suck always
and never ever had change since the day i was born
every decision i've made was a mistake
i'm always the main reason of problems , i've created enough troubles for everyone
i gonna apologise here for whatever problems i've created
SORRY
i try to mix around in this new environment
but people were not friendly at all
all they know is $ and face
when you try to mix with them , they'll give you "WTF" and "you're weird" look
i'm tired of it , i hate comparing it
i hate people judging me easily without trying to understand how i feel all this time!!
if you people ever know how awesome is DUDETTES & Mahadians , i bet you'll shut your big mouth
i can see no one that seems to understand me as much as divya do
i can see no one that seems to be so funny and awesome as much as hannah
i can see no one that seems to be so crazy as kanmani
i can see no one that seems to be as sweet as jannisa
i can see no one that seems to be so trustable like chua
i can see no one that seems to be having so much trust in me like tiinesh
i can see no one that seems to be as cute and genius as thivaa
guys , i love mahadians
and i know i can't get out from this school to go back there anymore
sometimes , when i look back at those memories , i tend to cry silently , screaming in my heart
no one updates my playlist like what divya did now
no more secrets being keep by 5 girls same time
no more insulting bizu together
no more cuci mata
no more talks bout how our 'red beans' treat us
i was a super random and loud person , ain't i right dudettes?
i had never ever stop telling stories or laugh till tears burst out
remember , you guys said " when i laugh , the whole building gonna break down "
earthquake is coming!!
i remember how you guys keep shouting at me , asking me to keep quiet during fellowship
yea , for both years fellowship , you people had been repeating the same line
well , i kinda miss those days preparing name-tag for Ultraman and Foxrod
i've never ever been pissed that you guys don't talk much to me nowadays
and i know we love and miss each other 24/7
no matter how fun is it in SRI KL , RM still the best among my school memories
i don't know how long will i lose my sweet smile
i don't know how long will i stick to my emo + cool face
red and green bean , please stop this
don't force me to get out fom this world
red bean had never ever tried to put herself into my situation and understand
all she's doing is persuading me to sacrifice myself and fit in
i really don't know whats going on now
it'k killing me inside
green bean is even more worst
i got nothing to say as i'm really dissapointed with what had happen
FINE FINE , i realise my mistake
i shouldn't had actually exist in this world
i'm giving up
please , leave me alone and let me have peace
i realise sitting alone is the best now
no quarel , no shouts , no cries , no laughter
i'm fine with it
guys , i'm exhausted
i wanna give up my whole life
oh yea, don't text or call me cause you're actually wasting your credits only
