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i'm just not happy at all!!
before that , if you hate XIN RUO when she's emo , then please click "x" on the right top
ok guys i need say that i'm suffering
suffering till the max , when i do anything u just appear on my mind
and everything seems to be upside down ,
my language sounds 'weird'
i cannot focus on anything besides thinking that i want the PAST super badly
my mom start complaining that i'm not putting effort in my studies
cause i just cannot concentrate now!
ok who understand how much am i'm suffering now?
hais , i don't know what to do at all
i'm so blur and the worst is i don't know who to go to except GARY kor
sometimes i asked back myself do i really don't mind bout the lies?
i don't know cause i'm freaking blur now
all my feelings had just mixing up
and i find everything so not right!!
i shouldn't be thinking of i want the 'pass' back
but i just cannot stop myself from wanna get it back
i'm trying to stop myself from ruining peoples life
don't wanna be a bitch again :(
red-bean had been repeating that 2010 - 2012 year gonna be super important year for me
i knw it is , but i just cannot focus!!
all i wanna do is stay away from steading with anyone for this few years
cause i dont think i can let go so easily and will be not fair to the other one
suffering is all i can say
lifes suck
people hates me i guess :(
i'm so lifeless
i deserve it , dont i?
PS: i just wanna stay away from him :(
